Self-induced Jedi mind trick
I have really enjoyed my life over the last few years. I enjoy my career as an artist and an instructor as much or more than I had imagined I would through the years it took me to get to where I am and where I’m still headed. However, being the type of person that puts everything I have into almost everything I do, the slowed pace of the recently passed 4th of July weekend made me realize that I didn’t know how to not be busy.
Is that a bad thing? No. It’s just how it is. Well, that or I took a brick to the head that I’m not aware of, making me unable to not be stressed.
I put everything I had into everything I’ve done over the last few years that it got to the point where I stopped doing most things that weren’t somehow related to art or education. I probably have as much going on as before but, I’m learning to relax and not let myself feel so rushed. I now have the confidence to know that I don’t have to bleed (metaphorically) to do my best and to feel accomplished. I’m still teaching a summer painting class and have two large projects I’m working on (a large mural and my annual orchard project) but, appreciating life and stopping to see the forrest through the sink drain or whatever has been nice.
Am I still pretty busy? Yup.
Do I feel like it? Nope!
I need to try to keep this more relaxed mindset and not get carried away.
I think I’ll manage… somehow.
It’ll be like a self-induced Jedi mind trick; “You will not forget to relax.”
(waves fingers in front of his own face)