Strange growth
Monday, November 14th, 2011I recently realized something strange and unexpected. No, I didn’t realize I had a third eye, that I secretly want to be a photographer, or that I don’t actually like Star Wars. It happened a few months ago while making new work and thinking about some basic, fundamental “rules” of art that I teach my students on a daily basis. I realized that at some point during grad school, I shut down to growing as an artist and no longer was cognizant of some of the basics I’d used for years. I had little desire to use 2-point perspective, reflected light and reflected color were rarely used, and some fundamental painting methods were stashed deep in the dustiest corners of my brain’s storage closet. Peers and instructors pointed these things out to me but, for the most part I only let their words sink in when I wanted them to.
I haven’t had a lot of time to create new work lately or when I have had it, I was overwhelmed by the clutter in the room that I work in. The room is a decent size but, painting supplies, furniture, a work desk, a television, a couch, and a stack of old paintings combined with my busy life add up to a room that could be visited by the show “Hoarders” at any minute. Obviously, painting regularly, freely, and whenever I wanted without having to clear everything in my way so I could work wasn’t a whole lot less intimidating than using a toaster while taking a bath. Okay, that may be a bit extreme but, to an artist things like that can be incredibly intimidating.
What I’m getting at is this, I had re-discovered the artist that I buried in the years between undergrad and grad school and haven’t been able to let him loose. I’m not even remotely complaining or saying I didn’t learn anything in because I probably learned about half of my artistic knowledge there. I’m just saying that sometimes we realize there’s more in ourselves than we see and others can only do so much to draw it out of us if we’re dragging our heels, oblivious to the world that awaits if we just stop resisting.
I’m really enjoying my new work and looking forward to making more; a lot more. Very soon, my space issue will no longer stop me from working whenever I have free time. Increased space and freedom to create will surely bring about changes to my art. I’ll divulge more later and leave you wanting more, or at least leave you wondering why I think you would be wondering about something that doesn’t concern you. For now, I’ll end by saying changes are blowing directly in my face and I’m walking forward. Perhaps, I will take shelter or maybe I’ll keep walking but shield myself from what the wind carries. No. I will let the wind come, grab everything it sends my way and hopefully grow to my artistic potential while drawing on everything I’ve gained (learned) from the winds of my past journeys.